Monday, July 31, 2006
on a side note.
my last 2 weeks of hols are almost fully packed. sigh look at this.
mon - matric fair; moses's bdae dinner at hard rock cafe
tues - watching lake hse with mel; maybe joining takopachi for their og outing
weds - _____; meetin dan leong for movie and dinner
thurs - meeting kor for lunch; meeting fel to discuss foc stuff; sending jon off; staying over at mark's place?
fri - continue from mark's place; audrey's 21st bdae
sat - work; meeting saha for dinner
sun - church
bad and packed huh. sigh. im not even gonna be home one night for dinner leh. shit. i must do some rescheduling. i must at least have dinner home on one night. dont like not having at least one night home with my family. plus my brother and sister are already commenting things like 'you're hardly at home anyway' and its really not nice to hear. plus mom's nagging and dad's resigned tone at times. must la steph. one night only. go reschedule!
anyway. i should attempt to sleep. waking up at 7am on a monday morning is a rarity now. if not ill die in mpsh tmr. lack of sleep again. ah well.
nights guys.
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12:16:00 AM
Friday, July 28, 2006
i love all of you deeply. i do. and i wanna say it over and over again and shout out to the whole world that i love you all deeply. biggg hug.
and ps. jon i know i said i wont say it anymore. but i really will miss you.
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10:59:00 PM
Lord, please grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change, courage to change the things i can, and wisdom to know the difference.
and this.
Today's Daily Word - Thursday, July 27, 2006
Experience
I am poised, strengthened, and at peace.
There is a common expression that experience is the best teacher. I see the experiences of my past as resources that will help me make wise choices in the future. Even an experience that I consider a mistake shows me what not to do. Seeming mistakes help me learn to trust my resilience and they contribute to my wisdom.
Devoting time to meditation, prayer, and contemplation, I make choices from an inner place of wisdom and peace. These are spiritual experiences that help me obtain a deep awareness of God that cannot be undone by any outer condition. In conscious communion with God, I understand my relationship with God and my relationships with the people in my life.
"Talk no more so very proudly, ...
for the Lord is a God of knowledge,
and by him actions are weighed."
--1 Samuel 2:3
hugs.
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12:17:00 AM
Thursday, July 27, 2006
oh yes. you know the whats the classic thing? you know 'bei bi wu chi' right? moses calls that phrase baby no teeth. hahahaha. we laughed from national library to suntec man. hahah =)
steph craptaculated at
11:36:00 PM
sometimes the people u thought u knew, start becoming the strangers u never wanted says:
*hugs* babe.. you're beautiful no matter what they say. words cant bring you down! :) sorry just something random after reading ur blog. pls dont say ure incorribly flawed. that is nonsense. u have no idea who is falling in love with your smile and ur silly ways *hugs* :)
sometimes the people u thought u knew, start becoming the strangers u never wanted says:
dont think u're inferior ok.. simply because there is a breakup doesnt mean ure not good enough for the person.. i mean come on.. i noe i shldnt rub this in.. but u noe urself how many ppl have had feelings for u! haha.. thats sth i am envious abt too kae..
this is why i love the css people. and why i love ade. she's the best girl partner any one can have. i loveyou babe and all you crazy css people who suan me and make fun of me yet offer me so much love, care, concern, worries, nags and prayers. hugs.
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12:12:00 AM
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
anyway. updates. =) today's a good day. besides waking up damn late and spending a freaking load on my bloody cab fare. =( i swear ill never cab down to town in the day again. argh but yeah. good food trip we had =) the main com (mark brian ade fel greg edward and myself) went around chinatown trying all the famous food around. we started eating from bout 1 to bout 5 plus at chinatown. was quite full by then already. and oh we celebrated fel's bdae too! happy bdae girl! hope you liked the cake and the present! =) after that i headed down to ps to meet my foc 05 og. we went to manhattan fish market for dinner and i had to squeeze my fish&chips down cos i didnt want to waste food. was super full by then but we headed to starbucks for coffee still. i was so bloated that i kept burping gas on my way home. haha poor people in the mrt. hehe but yeah imagine how bloated i was and how much weight im going to put on man. shucks. must watch what i eat from now on man. haha but yeah i had so much fun with my og people (chunkymark, aloy, aron, paul and daniel leong). hahah although im like the only girl today =( so from the time i met them to the time we left, it was poke-fun-at-steph-and-suan-her-time. they bullied me lor. =( i missed the girls then.. wished they were there to give me support. haha at least i wont be the only one that would be suan-ed. hehe but it was really fun meeting up with all of them again. next rainbow outing in dec ah =) hehe.
thankyou brian for organising the food trip and paul for organising the rainbow outing! =)
tmr long day again. lunch with jon and gang at 2. dinner with alexis and gang at 7. but im looking forward to it. =)
till then people. =)
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11:14:00 PM
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
another passing and random thought. i realised how cynical ive become after what happened with him. i simply dont trust guys anymore and i simply dont believe in me. dont believe in promises. (i mean guys always break them anyway) and i dont believe in that anyone can love another wholeheartedly. even if there is someone out there for me, i dont know whether i dare to open up myself to another person anymore. i dont know whether i dare risk getting hurt again. once bitten twice shy. for me its just a whole series of events. no i dont regret anything but im just hurt. i got over it real quick. maybe faster than i actually allowed myself to get over it. i mean im totally over it already. but the hurt.. doesnt just simply go away like that. even though i tell people that im totally ok and fine and everything but sometimes i think i give myself more credit than i actually deserve. and more than the hurt, is the wound of self-confidence. i guess it just plunged.. ok maybe not plunged but definitely my self-esteem definitely fell. i mean, i always knew that i was a terribly flawed person but the incident just made me feel as if i am so flawed that its incorrigible. and of course, strengthened my belief that im damn flawed. im not blaming anyone.. i am not. just feeling down i guess. mood swings. ha
steph craptaculated at
11:48:00 PM
decided to blog though i have nothing to blog about. guess my fingers are just itchy and that i wanna type. haha rubbish reason but anyway. i almost finished collating the photos for tioman.. so i decided to post some up.
tioman! look at the blue and green water!
the beautiful sunset at tioman. =)
we four at tioman with ben as the cameraman. =) nice picture right? -grins-
me and my favourite girl! =)
the rock where we snorkelled around and saw pretty corals, fishes, sea urchins, sea cucumbers and nemoo!
us five with the super nice local which rented us our snorkelling equipment for free. =) ps. i think this is a super nice pic! heh.
all five of us! moses ben steph ade mark =) at the resort we stayed in =)
the ramly burger which made mark and ben craving for more during the entire trip. =)i would have posted more but i doubt blogspot can hold that many.. but once i upload the rest of the photos to my photo page ill post up the link! =) hehehe. okok i better get changed and meet mel.. running late again! hahah.
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11:05:00 AM
Monday, July 24, 2006
i've got great news!
i finally packed my room!! woooohoooo! hahaha. this is great news because for those of you who have been to my place, you would have known that my place is horrendously messy and untidy. and my table has so many things strewn all over it that i dont have place to write on it. but now, my place is a pretty sight! cleared and clean and dust-free! and my cupboard with my notes/readings/packages in it is cleared and arranged nicely and freed of space for the upcoming sem's stuff! =) good right? im super proud of myself la! haha. so there goes my lovely day. im gonna continue watching 'bring it on' that my brother recorded =)
till later!
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12:45:00 AM
Saturday, July 22, 2006
was tired when i went to work but i was really proud of myself because i reached work 15 mins early today! first time in the past year that i've been working at the centre. haha i either reached on time or 5 mins before hand.. never 15 mins early. so i had time to eat proper breakfast and drink coffee without rushing and worrying that im adding more acid to my already acidic stomach. =) but work was really strenous today. i mean, i was tired to begin with but i really could tahan the tiredness but the classes really drove me mad today. talked alot of nonsense and gave me a lot of rubbish. made so much noise and everytime i plead with them to keep quiet or sit down or behave, they'll do it for half a minute before resuming what they were doing before. i had to shout at them a couple of times before they actually sat down. but being the itchy backsides that they are, they started going crazy in class again and it really took up alot of my energy. and that was just the first class of my 6 classes. the second class tried my patience when i was trying to go through the work. because they were doing poetry appreciation and i was trying really hard to explain to them and get them interested but they were either not paying attention or looked really bored or talking rubbish. i got so mad at them but i was just so tired that i told them in a very tired voice that they really made me sad.. and that i really felt like a failure because i felt that i couldnt make them interested in whatever that was to be learnt today. because the morning classes were not my classes as i was relief teaching the class.. and i simply told them that my afternoon classes (which were my classes) combined together times ten were not as bad as that two class combined together. guess they were probably shocked by what i told them because they were much better behaved after that. my afternoon classes also gave me quite a fair bit of rubbish but saving grace being one of the students, ernest, he came over to talk to me during the leftover time after we finished the work and he was super sweet about alot of stuff.. talked to me about alot of other stuff too. really cute. but my last class was the straw that broke the camel's back. i told them off also, but in a tired and serious manner la. but yeah i was really just upset already.. i mean all 6 classes gave me nonsense so naturally i got fed up with the last class. but i swear i love my kids damn alot cos when i was talking to them and 'scolding' them i told them if they dont like me or dont like my face its only a few more months before tuition ends for good and they will not see me again as i might not take them next year again if they continue.. and they were like "huh you mean you wont teach us next year? but we want you to teach.." so sweet lor. hehe but ya. they drove me mad but yet sigh, it makes me just adore them even more. oh well.
went for novena after that. wooohoooo! i found a novena slot that i can actually attend even though im working! damn happy la. i was really really happy that i could go for novena again. prob gonna try to make it a weekly thing. =) happy happy. hehe dinner with the three of them was fun. ate at the hong kong cafe (where my church ppl brought me there for lunch). food is not bad lor. hehe but nothing beats their french toast man. super shiok. haha you all should try it someday too. =)
yesterday was spent nuahing at home and going for my sister's subject combination talk in school and at the seniors' farewell party at keenan's place. was quite fun.. took alot of really nice photos with the seniors and funny ones too. will really miss the seniors.. esp alph regina keenan netto chunkymark kester val.. i mean they are the seniors who actually talked to me and asked how i did.. plus they made the arts corner vibrant and alive.. its gonna be really weird without them this coming sem. sigh. will miss the seniors deeply.
ah well. long tiring days. tmr another tiring day. i should rest and drink more water. hah k ta people.
steph craptaculated at
11:30:00 PM
Thursday, July 20, 2006
have lotsa thoughts in my mind. lotsa changes that i wanna make. lotsa things i wanna do. lotsa thoughts that i think i need to say/write out but who out there would wanna listen to repetitive stuff and incoherent thoughts that even i myself cannot figure out.
on a side note. i like coldplay's yellow. anyone has that mp3?
steph craptaculated at
10:08:00 PM
but anyhow. tioman tioman! it had been a fantabulous trip. the sun was good the sea was so so clear that we could see to the bottom of the seabed and so blue and green that its just blissfulness to swim in it the sand was so fine and real and not imported that sinking my feet into the sand and playing with it was what i kept doing everytime my feet touched the sand. and the best part of it all was the company that i went with. my closest friends in css. all that laughing and talking and unglam-ness and funny habits and nuah-ing and basking under the sun.. it forms an intricate part of my memories that i know ill never forget. my first trip out of spore without an authoritative figure.. just my friends and i. and its just so marvellous. especially when we were actually quite disappointed when we first got there because i guess we sorta expected more and the beach didnt quite look the way we thought it would be. but as the days passed and time passed we loved it more and more there. before i go into thanks and become all nostalgic, let me run through the trip..
stayed over at mark's place the night before the trip.. was sick then. but im glad the gastric went away by the time i reached tioman. slept the entire bus ride and the ferry ride. the motion sickness pill i ate for the ferry ride helped cos i literally k.o-ed on the ferry which was a good thing since the ferry ride was a lil bumpy and i get seasick easily. reached tioman at about 2 and we were really quite disappointed because we kinda expected more. the room was quite good for a standard chalet.. haha of course i would say that because ade and i got the queen sized bed with the pretty comforter! and the guys got stuck to the single bed with only the blanket. hehehhe. went to walk and play in the beach.. the water was so so cool and clear and refreshing it was just blissfulness to stay in it. and haha ben became like a small boy everytime he saw the sea and beach and kept going 'wo yao you yong' translated meaning 'i wanna swim' hahaha. very cute. oh ade cut her big toe on the rock then.. think it became quite a hassle for her the entire trip. -hugs ade- we watched the sunset which was beautiful and went star-gazing after dinner.. the stars in the sky were so pretty that i could have stayed there all night to star gaze. but we were not geared for star gazing so we went back to the room. played asshole daidee and it was freaking funny! hahaha. ben's reaction everytime he reached the bottom two was so hilarious he always sent the rest of us laughing like crap. and moses's one-liners and special weapon made us laugh so hard our sides ached. talk about training for 6 pacs man. haha. the game was good. we went out for supper after that.. the stingray we ate was really fresh. just super bony. so it was really difficult to eat it. and satay was good. sat around and talked and nuahed before heading back to the room again. oh oh and we actually had night prayers together! how cool is that la! i was really happy that we could actually have night prayers together.. no masks just in true spirit of wanting to pray and thank the Lord for everything. =) we rock man! haha. then it was late night talk with ben. poor thing. i think i spent the whole night nagging at him. hahah but yea. always enjoy the talks with him. cos i get to nag! hahhaa.
woke up to a terrible second day start. we were late for the snorkelling trip that was arranged by the resort.. in the end we decided to miss it because we felt bad making the rest of the people going for snorkelling wait. we spent the next 10-15 mins trying to comfort ourselves by saying that the big guy probably has His own reason why He didnt want us to go. maybe we might have drowned yadayada. but indeed He had His own reasons because we really had so much fun by ourselves after that. because we couldnt snorkel we decided to go to the beach by ourselves and play water and suntan. since it was low tide and we could walk over to the small island via the sand beds that could be seen during low tide. and it was there that i had my firsts with ade! hahaha. -winks to ade- it was really good rite girl? so many of our firsts together. hehehe. i absolutely love that small island and the rocks now. =) went back to the room to nuah abit before ade and i continued suntan-ing by the pool. wah it was damn shiok seriously. now i know how it is like to suntan by the pool. =) and after that, ben brought us all snorkelling! it was really damn damn fun! i saw nemo and sea urchins and sea cucumber and corals and schools of fishes!! such a pretty sight i swear. =) i wanna go diving now. hehe. went star gazing again after dinner. this time round only ade ben and myself went. and we went there prepared to star gazed with cloths to lie on and torchlights and food. heheh i saw shooting stars!!! was damn happy after i saw each shooting star lor. hahaha =) i really enjoyed that time of star gazing. too bad we cant see anything from spore. oh well. late night talk with ben after star gazing again. haha im either nagging at him or laughing at him. but i must say its always enjoyable talking to him. =)
we spent the third day running around taking as much photos as we can because we took so lil photos during the last two days. hahaha was damn funny actually. but yay we have nice photos for once. heheh will post it up once i consolidate all the photos from the four cameras. =) after which we headed for our last meal at tioman with ramly burgers and were on the way back to spore.
i wanna give a big shout out to moses mark adeline and ben for being the best company any girl could have on the trip. and special mention to moses for looking out all the small details that ensured that we were safe and had fun and for all the funny and hilarious moments. mark for joining in the hilarious moments and for odd & even. =) adeline for being with me during the many firsts and for being there. i loveyou. hugs. and ben for taking care of me during this trip, together with the many candid and kiddish moments, as well as all the talks we had. hugs. and lastly, God for keeping us all safe during the trip and allowing us to bond together on a more intimate level. i loveyou all. hugs.
steph craptaculated at
2:31:00 PM
Monday, July 17, 2006
anyway. will be away at tioman to wednesday. so pray for me and my health and for the safety of the 5 of us who are there.
i shall attempt to sleep now.
nights people.
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12:48:00 AM
Saturday, July 15, 2006
i need sleep.
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9:26:00 PM
Friday, July 14, 2006
thurs - went to tutor my cousin before heading down to town to meet dantan for dinner. haha ended up eating at pepper lunch at taka. eh the food is really not too bad.. and so funn! we get to cook ourselves and add our own sauces and make it as tasty as we want it to =) hee. walked around heeran after that to find a present for his friend.. and we ended up at bugis with jon ade lianne moses teresatan to watch pirates 2. =) hehe. first time i watched a movie on its opening day leh! or at least as far as i can remember.. hehe. but hee. the show is really funny.. johnny depp is good. i just didnt exactly like the ending.. a lil anti-climatic for me. but other than that it was really nice. dan sent me home after that.. was a great night's out with him catching up and talking again. had fun laughing at his lame jokes and just catching up. haha dan, we should do it some day soon! =)
fri - had tri-varsity mtg to settle the love offerings stuff with the other two unis.. and it went on surprisingly well and fast. was supposed to ktv but due to the poor response we didnt go in the end =( another time i guess. sigh. but we went shopping! haha. so fun! but very very very tiring. my legs are like aching now. but heh. made some good buys today which im really happy bout. grins. dinner with mark moses jeremy ade ben was fun. and the brownie at chijmes.. ooooh! realllyyyyy good i must say. but definitely get gelat if u eat the whole thing by yourself.. so share the brownie.. plus its quite ex so sharing is definitely a plus point =) heh. but its really good man. and i like chijmes.. as in the whole ambience of the place. i wanna eat there one day! haha but it was a good night out.
mark moses me ben jeremy ade - at the brownie place at chijmes =)
the chocolate volcano.. =) looks good rite? it tastes good too! hee.2 more days to tioman! cant wait! =)
steph craptaculated at
11:14:00 PM
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
I know that when you look at me
There's so much that you just don't see
But if you would only take the time
I know in my heart you'd find
A girl who's scared sometimes
Who isn't always strong
Can't you see the hurt in me?
I feel so all alone
I wanna run to you (oooh)
I wanna run to you (oooh)
Won't you hold me in your arms
And keep me safe from harm
I wanna run to you (oooh)
But if I come to you (oooh)
Tell me, will you stay or will you run away
Each day, each day I play the role
Of someone always in control
But at night I come home and turn the key
There's nobody there, no one cares for me
What's the sense of trying hard to find your dreams
Without someone to share it with
Tell me what does it mean?
(chorus)
I need you here
I need you here to wipe away my tears
To kiss away my fears
If you only knew how much...
(chorus)
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hah im spending my free times at home going through really nice songs and their lyrics. wont deny that its definitely making me all that sentimental and emotional. (dammit steph is just an emotional freak) but yeah. certain paragraphs in the song really strikes a chord. and shit mel did warn me bout this song making me feel all sentimental cos it made her feel sentimental too. hah we two are really two peas in a pod man. hai what would i do without her man.
oh well. all the crazy lyrics posting. give me a few days and ill get over this crazy urge. haha
steph craptaculated at
10:04:00 PM
Today's Daily Word -- Wednesday, July 12, 2006
Worthy
I am a creation of God and therefore worthy of all good.
I define myself not as much by who I am as by what I am. My name, face, personality, and knowledge do not reveal the essence of me. The truth of my being is beyond definition and description. I am one of God's creations, worthy of all good.
I am worthy of experiencing health and happiness, prosperity and peace. The blessings of God are mine to claim, and I do so with heartfelt gratitude. I am a spiritual being, free to express the life, love, wisdom, and peace within me.
I recognize that divine qualities are being expressed throughout life in many ways and forms. Everyone is capable of living from his or her inner spiritual nature. We have been created by God to give expression to divine qualities, and we are each worthy of all good.
"But you are not in the flesh; you are in the Spirit, since the Spirit of God dwells in you."--Romans 8:9
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and indeed, He takes time to remind me time and time again that I am His creation and that I am created in the likeness of Him. though i may be flawed, and have tons of imperfections, He lets me know that He loves me no matter what and that I am still His child. its really messages like this that comforts me and reminds me that I am worthy to be His child and to be loved by Him and the people around me.
and of course, yesterday's devotion which really struck a chord with me.
Today's Daily Word -- Tuesday, July 11, 2006
Patience
The spirit of God is being expressed through me as patience and love.
Having patience with myself and with others is an expression of my spiritual maturity. I understand that love and support are more valuable than strict coherence to a schedule. People are more valuable than things.
In any situation I have a choice as to how I respond. I choose to be patient, and because I do, my natural response in all situations is to be thoughtful of others.
My patience increases as I expand my view of life. With loving eyes and an empathetic heart, I look for the best in myself and others. I consider the presence of God within us all.
I make the choice to be patient and loving. I invite the spirit of God to work through me so that I am an expression of patience and love in all that I do.
"With all humility and gentleness, with patience, bearing with one another in love, making every effort to maintain the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace."--Ephesians 4:2-3
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reminds me yet again that the biggest virtue i need to learn at this point in time is patience. that impatience will bring me nowhere. and that i should just restrain myself with patience so as to not do the wrong thing. indeed self-control and patience. i just hope i can carry these out as weeks pass.
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6:01:00 PM
mon
slept at 5ish cos watched the finals.. and i woke up late for work. bleh. barely made it on time for work. luckily my boss not around. =( but yeah. taught 1 class and left to meet moses and mark to settle the trip. slept on the way to yck.. had a damn good chat with mark moses and jon. heh we should do it more often ya! haha. but yea. headed down to minds cafe with mark moses jon to join shabu shabu for their outing.. quite fun la. hehe. played cranium and apples to apples.. games that reminised old times. heh. we're gonna miss the seniors alot man. sigh. but yeah. reached home bout 8ish.. slept on the way back also. had a damn good talk with mel in the night.. and enlin too. but sorry girl for not being able to talk much and help much. =( ended sleeping at 3ish.. and feeling really shagged. i fell asleep almost immediately after i went to bed.
tues
woke up late man. was supposed to meet mel at 12 at orchard but she called me at 1130 to find me still in bed. sigh. was really dead tired. but yeah rushed down and met her around 1ish.. had a good lunch and conversation with her. its always fun and nice hanging out with her.. =) then met adel afterwards.. and we went shopping! haha. im damn happy la.. but i still need to buy a few more stuff for my trip next week. =) but yeah. i bought new stuff and am happy about it. hehe went down to risen christ for mass with aaron, charkwa, justin and piglet after that. then headed to geri's place for the arts gathering.. wahlao her condo super nice man. i really like the layout and her condo's swimming pool! really really nice place.. and really good fun. love this kind of outing.. where we just sit and eat and really talk rubbish. hahaha nothing's better than this seriously. the kind of conversations we have can start us all laughing from the start of the gathering to the end of it. =) as we always say.. only the arts pple can talk about this kind of ridiculous things. hehe. and i love it la! grins. thankyou ade mark moses alph aaron jon regina aaron benjy joel charkwa justin chunkymark nicole teresatan alexis nat and of course geri for the wonderful time tonight. =) and joel for the lift home =) hehe. blessed to have this group of people.. this community of friends. we may all be catholics but we know how to have fun how to have a life and how to remember God and pray. thats what i love about them all. =) thankyou all. hugs
tuition tmr. but nothing else, which im glad for. =) and can sleep in later! haha.
would love to blog more but im just so tired. another time la.
nights everyone. =)
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12:27:00 AM
Monday, July 10, 2006
Begitu banyak cerita
Atas sebab ada duka
Cinta yang ingin ku tulis
Bukanlah cinta biasa
Dua keyakinan beza
Masaalah pun takkan sama
Ku tak ingin dia ragu
Mengapa mereka selalu bertanya
Cintaku bukan di atas kertas
Cintaku getaran yang sama
Tak perlu di paksa
Tak perlu di cari
Kerna ku yakin ada jawabnya...ohhh
Andai ku bisa merubah semua
Hingga tiada orang terluka
Tapi tak mungkin,
Ku tak berdaya
Hanya yakin menunggu
Jawabnya
Janji terikat setia
Masa mengupas segala
Mungkin dia kan berlalu
Ku tak mahu mereka tertawa
Diriku hanya insan biasa
Miliki naluri yang sama
Tak ingin berpaling
Tak ingin berganti
Jiwa ku sering saja berkata..ohh
Andai ku mampu mengulang semula
Ku pasti tiada yang curiga
Kasih kan hadir
Tiada terduga
Hanya yakin menunggu
Jawapan...
Cintaku bukan di atas kertas
Cintaku getaran yang sama
Tak perlu di paksa
Tak perlu di cari
Kerna ku yakin ada jawabnya...ohhh
Andai ku bisa merubah semua
Hingga tiada orang terluka
Tapi tak mungkin
Ku tak berdaya
Hanya yakin menunggu
Jawabnyaohhh
Diriku hanya insan biasa
Miliki naluri yang sama
Tak ingin berpaling
Tak ingin berganti
Jiwa ku sering saja berkata..ohh
Andai ku mampu pulang semula
Ku pasti tiada yang curiga
Kasih kan hadir
Tiada terduka
Hanya yakin menunggu
Jawapan...
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love this song too. but i need translation! anyone can translate the song lyrics for me?? =) would love to know what it actually means..
keeping you in my prayers.. and
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12:01:00 AM
Sunday, July 09, 2006
anyway. match later. i hope i can wake up and actually watch it.. i was sleeping throughout 3/4 of the match last night. jialat rite. haha and i hope i can last thru the day tmr.. morning 830am working. luckily im only working for 1.5 hours. must check out the prices for tioman again. still hoping we wouldnt have to pay too much cos i am really looking forward to it.. yeah. so hopefully tmr will go on fine.
just realised i have a complicated life. jem was telling me about it just now. but yea. i should take a seat back and look at my life for awhile.. and pray for things to solve properly and quickly and well. praying is the only way now.. =)
still keeping you in my prayers
steph craptaculated at
9:46:00 PM
Saturday, July 08, 2006
but other than the good day im really tired. first day in the whole week that i woke up at 7ish instead of sleeping at that kind of untimely hour. so was really tired the entire day.. didnt help that i taught the same thing for almost 6 classes.. luckily zach (my new york colleague) co-taught with me and took some of my classes. if not i really taught the same thing 6 times. bah but yeah. thats how bad it is la. ah well.
i hope tioman is still on. it doesnt look too promising at this point of time. hope we dont have to pay more.. cos im really looking forward to going for it. really need the holiday.. *crosses my finger*
better go slp. later must wake up and watch match.
keeping you in my prayers..
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11:21:00 PM
Friday, July 07, 2006
steph craptaculated at
11:00:00 PM
lotsa things to do in the hols..
from ktv to going to the zoo to gathering at mark's place to dim sum buffet to going back to cj? to another main com mtg to mass watching pirates with css people to tioman to chocolate buffet to arts gathering to seniors' farewell to going out with mel adel loi dionne fia saha to visiting kor to meeting up with ge and starhub people to meeting up with the 29th and 28th council.. and many many other things that i might have forgotten..
so much to do so little time.
and so much thinking.
just realised i really love this song -
budak pantai - fann's song
i cant sleep
your thoughts just keeps on swirling inside of my head
never knew it could be this bad
i was a fool i played too cool
i thought i was all that you had just me
never thought i could be so sad
it seems only yesterday
so happy we two (just we two)
now just look at me
alone and so blue
i was wrong
i admit it
wo qiu ni hui lai
im so sorry
please forgive me please come back to me
i picked up the phone
i called your home
my heart pounding hoping that you would say
its ok lets try again
the line connects
i hesitate
i dont know if you'll give me that chance to say
can we start again as friends
theres so much i wanted to say
for all that ive done
but when u come on the line
the words just wont come
i was wrong
i admit it
wo qui ni hui lai
im so sorry please forgive me
please come back to me
i know im wrong
but i ask for another chance
let me please try again
i was wrong
i admit it
wo qiu ni hui lai
im so sorry please forgive me
please come back to me
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absolutely love the song. and bukan cinta biasa. not that the above song applies to me now.. cept maybe the first two lines. but ah. budak rocks seriously. love them to bits love their music to bits. i want another budak soon!
sheesh. i just realised doing the right thing sometimes is really difficult. sometimes you will yourself and want to do the right thing but somehow or another you just end up doing the wrong thing even though you know its wrong. thats the worst kind of feeling and thing ever. seriously. and the best part of it is when you start liking it. the kind where even though you feel that its damn wrong but yet it feels so right. arghh. hate the kind of feeling im in now and the situation im in. roarrrrrrrrr.
hoping you're fine there. keeping you in my prayers.
steph craptaculated at
10:11:00 PM
Thursday, July 06, 2006
all in all. it was really a good and fun followup. though im really sleep deprived and could go on sleeping for hours, i really enjoyed myself. its just sad now that foc is finally over.. and term is starting soon. havent done my module preferencing yet. i hope im not doing too many history mods alone.
ah well. will miss foc now thats it over. all that memories and the people we got to know better because of foc. its amazing how God works and how His plan works. just remembered smth i saw from daily word today which is so apt since today's the last day of foc (technically la) and other stuff in my life at this point in time.
Daily Word -- Thursday, July 6, 2006
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Right Place
I am in my right place throughout this divine appointment day.
I will have divine appointments today in which I am in my right place to give or receive a blessing. These are important events that are not happening by chance but according to a divine design.
Yet I may have no indication that I am showing up for a divine appointment. Sometimes my first response in participating in the unfoldment of a divine plan seems, at the very least, unrelated to the positive and powerful results that are about to occur. The extraordinary, however, does come about.
As that divine plan continues to unfold, it is a revelation for me. I understand that because I acted in faith and with conviction, I accepted an opportunity to bless and be blessed. And the journey continues as I move through life being in my right place.
"So Abraham called that place 'The Lord will provide'; as it is said to this day, 'On the mount of the Lord it shall be provided.'"--Genesis 22:14
steph craptaculated at
9:58:00 PM
Monday, July 03, 2006
but yes. today was a much better day compared to last night. mass was ok.. psalming was.. err. shaky. haha thats for not psalming after a long time. was damn scared la. but ok la it could have been worse. i mean i have psalmed worse before. oh well. but thought bernard played well during mass today. =) so three cheers to him! haha. practice was funny.. haha we were doing ridiculous things trying to remember lyrics to 'for the beauty of the earth'. haha so was quite fun. lunch was really funny. i really had a good laugh and enjoyed the company. thankyou. =) tuition was ok la. my cousin forgot she had tuition with me.. but its ok on the whole. at least i get to visit my aunt. she seems happy to see me.. thankful also. i could tell. i really hope she gets better.
ah. will be away for the next 3 days. followup. exciting! hehe. cant wait.
till my next post on followup.. tata!
steph craptaculated at
12:19:00 AM
Saturday, July 01, 2006
steph craptaculated at
10:23:00 PM
budak down and other events to come! looking forward to superman and ktv during followup! and our zoo outing and sentosa outing and the post-foc-arts outing and tioman and baking sessions at mark's place and and many many more which we were planning in mark's car that day! and of course. followup itself!!!! grins.
today's classes were super good besides my second class which really drove me nuts with their nonsense. but my third class was super adorable! haha. i have this student whose laughter is so freaking contagious, everytime he laughs i cant hold myself back! and this other student who made such a cute and ridiculous 'yay!' during my teaching that i laughed till i cried. haha really love the kids man. grins
ah. off to settle followup stuff, check mail and simply to nuah. heh
ta!
steph craptaculated at
7:30:00 PM
