Saturday, November 29, 2003
jus came back frm cyf night.was laughing my head off..=) felt super out again but..hah used to it le.oh well.but the band did well=) though the singers were softer than the instruments and i thought i detected some off-key notes during the songs..but they did well=) and they put in alot of hard work and effort into it..so well done guys! the best was the skits..hahahhah cannot stand it man.they are damn funny! =) grins.this is one thing i like abt cyf.=) heh.yeah but somehow the last skit that they acted i felt quite associated with it.dunno.
*shrugs*
oh well.haha
joe called me just now!! hahahaha.was so surprised! but he's damn nice..actually called to ask how i was and all=) cool.grins.u all reading my blog must
go listen to their songs..
budak pantai damn good.hahaha they rock man.grins
oh well.tml gonna tutor my cousin and got choir prac.yay.choir rocks.singing rocks.
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10:51:00 PM
Friday, November 28, 2003
yanz!! i love you too!! =) grins.u take care too k? and we'll meet up! promise.hugs
hmmm havent been blogging.damn lazy past few days.
da!! i wanna sing!! we
so need to meet up soon and start digging all our old pieces and singing them! i miss
hallelujah chorus man! and
holy city and all our concert pieces!! geez.oh i miss kwek too.bah miss choir.hah im too choiry to not be a part of a choir.bah lotsa council shit happening.guess its part of being in council man.hah kor's leaving for korea soon.gonna miss him man.and he better bring smth back for me.hah and
glennie!! i miss u twin! we really gotta catch up soon=) got lotsa things to tell u=) grins.hmmm sigh.i miss my darling mei too.
tan hui koen!! u silly girl.better meet up with me k.if not ill chop off ur head.grins ahh miss so many ppl.miss my seniors too.sigh dunno wad to do without them nxt yr.bah oh well.watching mulan now.heh tata!
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10:56:00 PM
Sunday, November 23, 2003
wish list
- a new bag (bag's falling apart)
- a new handbag
- a pair of new sport shoes (my shoes are really spoilt)
- new clothes
- a maid (hah)
- budakumentary
- a new pair of flops/sandals
- a care bear!! (those that u can find in toys r' us..grins)
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9:12:00 PM
Wednesday, November 19, 2003
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8:34:00 PM
hah.broke down last night.again.such a weakling.dang.was talkin to saha last night..bah and den for no apparent reason i just felt like shit.the whole burden thing started again.and ya.started crying over the phone.thank god for saha last night.thanks dear.and he came to a conclusion..i need professional help.as in go for counselling.dunno la.maybe i shld.if i even have the time to go that is.bah oh well.but feeling better now la.at least i am.sigh stupid me.keep crying.walao like so fun like tht.bah argh.oh well.supp on fri.after tt..wheeee=) till then..mugging.bah
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7:10:00 PM
Tuesday, November 18, 2003
fann's song(come back to me)
i cant slp
your thoughts just keep on swirling inside of my head
oh ohhh
nvr knew it could be this bad
i was a fool, i played too cool
i thought i was all that you had
just me
nvr thought i could be so sad
seems only yesterday
so happy we two(just we two)
now just look at me
alone and so blue
chorus:
i was wrong,i admit it
wo qiu ni hui lai
i'm so sorry,pls forgive me
pls come back to me
i was wrong,i admit it
wo qiu ni hui lai
i'm so sorry, pls forgive me
pls come back,come back to me
i picked up the phone,i called ur home
my heart pounding,hoping that you would say
'its ok,lets try again'
the line goes next(?)
i hesitate,i dont know if you'll give me that chance
to say 'can we start again as friends?'
there's so much i wanna say
for all that i've done
but when you come on e line
the words just wont come
[chorus]
i noe im wrong
but i asked for another chance
let me pls try again(try again, try again)
[chorus]
--budak pantai "budakumentary"
absolutely love this song.definitely one of my fav songs now.
steph craptaculated at
11:51:00 PM
was just watching the new channel 8 show..the doctor one.i think its on sars.fann's character lost her fiance to a road accident in korea..somehow i felt my heart wrench.i dunno.it somehow made me feel a lil sad..like i dun wanna lose someone..the other night i had a dream that someone died.
choy man.touch wood luckily i cant rem who.been having quite a few of these dreams..
*shivers* but yea.its scary.i dun wanna lose someone close to me.i dunno.feeling scared.
ah.feeling slpy again.tired.slept for abt an hr in the study rm at the cc today..supposed to be studyin but i fell asleep..but quite comfortable..its air-conditioned too.shiok.hah oh well.bah tired.christmas's coming!
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10:35:00 PM
Monday, November 17, 2003
dang.feeling sick.im not feeling that sick..but yet im not feeling well..got slight headache..n i suspect im running a slight fever..and my eyes are feeling tired and painful..dunno like when u're having a flu ur eyes hurt and ache kinda feeling..bah
did abit of studying today...2 solid hrs of studying finally.at my hse the cc..got study room..wah freaking conducive man.shiok.damn quiet and good.=) finally some place for me to study..lala.oh well.nxt yr i got good place to mug le.yay.exciting.
cant wait for supp to be over.
jiang finished his As today lor..lucky man.=) heh.bah fri faster come let me get it over as quickly as possible man.
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10:15:00 PM
Sunday, November 16, 2003
havent been updating..been real lazy.talk abt laziness man.supp is on fri..and wad have i been doing? slacking.slping.on the com.having meetings.watching tv.bah been slping more than ever before.slept the entire afternoon away..got up to watch rugby world cup semis.england vs france.haha was with saha for two yrs and i nvr understood the game.bah haha.was on the phone with him mah..and he was teaching me the game.hahah but wah england's flyback is damn good la.or at least i think so.he scored 5 out of 8 penalties leh.and had 3 drop goals.(or is that how u spell it?) yeah.finally understood quite abit of the game le.ahaha and to think my ex is the flanker frm acsi rugby.bah hahaha.oh well.sigh i really need to get going with studyin man.damn slack.hai slp and slp somemore.gee i think there's smth wrong with me.bah oh well.
baa baa black sheep have u any wool? wahah.
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11:03:00 PM
Wednesday, November 12, 2003
bah slept pract the whole day today.sigh dunno why so tired also.didnt do much studyin.feelin abit guilty le.i think im feelin a lil scared.which is darn good.i need to feel pressured again.too complacent.not good thing.scully i really cannot make it den i can really go screw myself.sigh
but yea feel better today.finally broke down last night.after 3 over weeks of holding back.and i feel so much better.guess its the holding back that's been causing all these mood thingy.oh well.hope im really out of it.these mood thingy's been affecting my studies.gee now i understand why adults say when u're emotionally unstable u cant do as well as when u're emotionally stable.oh well.i think i really shld go study.still got a treat to get..=)
*winks at duck*
steph craptaculated at
11:25:00 PM
Tuesday, November 11, 2003
feelin screwed up again.dunno la.screwed la.shit.dun feel good.feel like crying.shit.screw.bahh
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11:07:00 PM
Friday, November 07, 2003
hey.havent been blogging for a loong time.been sian these few days la.dun feel like blogging.oh well.just came back frm blue moo.grins seriously budak really rocks man.wahah yea this is prob going to be another of those budak entries so i guess u guys dowan to read it..=) oh well.met
joe today also.with
des and dee.haha damn funny.
joe kana suaned abt his chinese or otherwise known as
greek.hahha he brought it up during the blue moo performance a couple of time.haha but yea.had a fun time though before that i was quite pissed off.got pang-sehed by ppl.but hell.its their loss anyway.i enjoyed myself with
dee and des.so heck them.though i wished i had called someone along.darn.maybe i shld have been a lil more thick-skinned.but hell la.its over le.cos budak sang
'sha tan' den i was like darn.really shld have asked him to come.but heck.its over.yay had a good day.which is good.after a long time.havent been really this thrilled for a long time.oh well.yupyup.supp coming.less than
13 days time.i better study.plus oral presentation also.bah
steph craptaculated at
11:19:00 PM
Monday, November 03, 2003
i feel like jj's friendster's profile.i just want everyone to stay away.i just want to be alone.u noe alone.as in everyone just go away.stay away.i think my stress or depression or wadever u call it is getting worse.argh i just feel crappy.lousified.bloody shit.argh bah.rubbish get lost la.if not ill go.i wont end my life dun worry.i wont.but i just wished i was dead.argh feel so bah.yuck shit.everythin and anything is not helping.everything is making it worse.go screw la.wadever.i dun care le.just feel like shooting myself in the head.bah.
steph craptaculated at
10:09:00 PM
bah.my days are getting from bad to worse.gee argh.sick.i miss the seniors alot.only they really can cheer me up.sigh bah.arghh im feelin so freakin lousy.bah and down and troubled.argh jj i cant seem to not think! if u're reading this now..i think im going nuts.i just wanna isolate myself frm everyone arnd me.feeling damn burdened.i just wanna cry myself away.sheesh im not even thinking now.im just feeling so arghh.bah miss the seniors like siao.feel like jus boxing myself.bah
budak.i just wanna listen to their music.
steph craptaculated at
7:38:00 PM
Saturday, November 01, 2003
i wanna call him.but i told myself i will nvr call him again.alone.all alone.
steph craptaculated at
11:35:00 PM
do u all believe that if one controls his/her tears..one can get internal injuries? if the answer is yes, i think im going to die of internal injuries soon.im shaking real bad.real bad.and feeling damn numb.numb.really numb.nono i must do wad jj told me to do.ah screw it.dun care abt anythin.dun care.no.dun care.cannot think.i cannot think.i cannot let myself think.i feel so alone now.alone.
steph craptaculated at
11:30:00 PM
sigh.dunno whether i shld ask him to the blue moo thingy not.i told everyone i wont ask him leh.dunno la.like i ask he wld want to go like that.oh well.im bringing my brother along.dun care.my brother's bdae on tues.fri bringing him out to eat and bringing him to watch budak.he's the only other one in the family who appreciates a cappella music man.=) oh well.sigh i'm technically grounded.technically only.cannot get myself involved in other activities till after supp.so ya.oh well.better go study le.nite.
steph craptaculated at
10:35:00 PM
arghh.feeling damn screwed now.sheesh i really dunno wad to do abt saha and his stupid gf.like wad the hell la.why are u all like so immature and all?? geee.like wad the hell is ur prob man.geeez.im so tired of it.somehow i wish i cld be jj..jus ask everyone to get away frm me..go far far away frm me..but i noe i wont be able to survive past two days.gee arghh.screw.damn irritated.it doesnt help tt at this kind of stupid time, no one seems to be awake.cept adel who i accidentally woke..gee but thanks adel anyway.yea dunno la.i really dunnit it now.not now.not when im feelin this way.not now.not amidst all these rubbish post-stress syndrome i feeling now.argh screw man.gee wadever la.argh
blue moo 7th nov any one?
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